Speaking the Truth In love… What Can I Say?!

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my rock and my Redeemer.
Psalm 19:14

Early on in my life I learned, as i’m sure most of us do, words matter! I could get what I “NEEDED” WANTED, if I spoke the magic words, and I’m not just talking, “Please & Thank You”,  I could manipulate my world IF I could manipulate the people of my world to care enough to give me the best… i.e….  everything my sweet, beautiful, cute, loving heart could imagine having. I could also loose it all by saying the wrong thing(s). Oh well, practice makes perfect, right?  Well… except for this ONE rule… whatever a man sows, this he will also reap (Galatians 6:7)

I don’t remember the first time I fully understood this sowing/reaping was actually addressing MY fields of dreams. For a majority of my life I thought my fields SHOULD forever grow ONLY THAT which I demanded with my carefully spoken words orders. I think reality came as I entered the world and found that the competition for power and control over supply and demand was no longer guaranteed by the cocoon I was raised in. AND FURTHER MORE, no one  agreed to give me the power and control without declaring war.

But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come. For men (and women! and children!) will be (just like me) lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy, unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good, treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power; 2 Timothy 3:1-5 

The world, the one I couldn’t wait to join (cause Dad & Mom just don’t understand), had ways and means to get what “they” wanted and I was just a small town girl with small town ideas and dreams.

What is the source of quarrels and conflicts among you? Is not the source your pleasures that wage war in your members? You lust and do not have; so you commit murder. You are envious and cannot obtain; so you fight and quarrel. You do not have because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, so that you may spend it  on your pleasures.  James 4:1-3  And this, my friends, was spoken about church… a community set apart for love and family and encouragement.  Whoa! This is exactly why “I WOULD NEVER” join a church (bunch of hypocrites)!

In spite of my, “I WOULD NEVER!” declaration, the question pursued and demanded an answer from me …. what, pray tell, is the source of quarrels and conflicts in my non-church community of which I am quite the organizer, extraordinaire? Now we are talking MY field! I could reasonably claim a deep desire for quality seeds by which I and my community would enjoy health and wealth from the wisdom spent at planting time. But explaining the actual produce at harvest time? I own the results!

I’d like to embellish the truth to avoid embarrassing myself. I’d like to point my finger at the worker bees I manipulated into being slaves in my field. I’d like to find and compare myself and my fruit to those who’s fields are even worse than mine. If only there was a way to CHANGE the truth… but alas… before Jesus took over my life, my farming skills SUCKED (and still do when I try it on my own)!

For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but wanting to have their ears tickled, they will accumulate for themselves teachers in accordance to their own desires, and will turn away their ears from the truth and will turn aside to myths. 2 Timothy 4:3-4  

What Can I Say? Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my rock and my Redeemer.

I once was lost… but now am found. I once was blind… but now I see. I no longer perform for the “wrong” audience. Matthew 6:21 for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. 

The treasure I hoard in my heart, and the audience I perform for, to produce it and protect it, is no longer myself or an audience I can manipulate into mini me(s).

When I meditate on WHO (my audience of One) rules my heart, and WHAT He desires (my treasure), and WHEN He desires to increase it, and WHERE He will use the treasures He has stored, and HOW He will use such a weak storage chest, and WHY He has chosen to live here in me…

I guarantee the words of my mouth will proclaim He IS my Rock and my Redeemer… The only good seed to sow in a human heart!

Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.

THIS heart will reap – the love of God – By this, love is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment; because as He is, so also are we in this world. 1 John 4:15-17

What can I Say? I seek the Lord, and He answers me, and delivers me from all my fears. I looked to Him and I am radiant, and my face will never be ashamed. (Psalm 34:4-5) 

Speaking the TRUTH In Love… this is the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart!

**All Scripture quoted comes from the “Bible Gateway” app and is the NASB version of the Bible unless otherwise noted.